Another Thing I Never Thought I Would Say

Me: You took a sucker to the bathroom with you?

Leo: I wasn't finished with it and I had to go.

Me: Well let me have it and when you're finished going you can have the rest of it.

Yep...my son took a sucker with him to the bathroom when he was doing his business. Ridiculous!

Happy Halloween everyone!

Fierce Competition

Why does life seem like one big competition? I don't know what the deal is lately but I feel like I am in a competition and losing. Whether it be work or parenting or wifing (is that even a word? But I figure if I add -ing it makes it real!).

At work it feels like I am on a giant hamster wheel and even though I try really hard I am not getting anywhere. And I know the feeling is mutual with other employees. And there is nowhere to go. There are not really jobs in the area that I feel would give me the same benefits I am currently receiving. The pay might be the same but I have 3 weeks of vacation accrued and I can carry my sick leave over from year to year so I have quite a bit of that accrued as well. So even though there is not a lot of satisfaction (currently) at my job I don't want to leave. So I guess that is more of an internal competition with my mind!

As for the parenting I know it shouldn't be a competition but it always will be. Sometimes it's the competition between me and other people. People that shouldn't matter. But I read about the things they are doing with their kids and I think I wish I could do that. Or I should be doing that with Leo. Or I wish I could get that for Leo. Even though I know that I do a lot of with Leo and he has more than enough STUFF. And then I have the thoughts of competition of parenting with the hubs. I know I do more things with Leo than he does and that is fine. My work schedule is more accommodating to allow me the time to get home and still have the energy to take Leo places. But the time they spend together seems like Leo is getting so much more out of it. And he seems to enjoy that even more. And it's like...hello?! I'm the one that is almost always doing stuff with you. Why are you wanting to spend time with him? But then I'm sure it's because I spend a lot of time with him and so he wants to spend even more time with his dad. And again...I complain about him and his dad not doing enough together so why do I even care?! But that's just my brand of crazy coming out!

And then finally the competition for being a wife. I talk to other people that are married and it seems like the spark is alive in each one of them. And even though I don't think our spark has been lost I sometimes wish that it was brighter. I don't know if I'm explaining this right, but it's like when you watch a movie or a TV show and you see someone kissing passionately...even though I think it's really dorky I want that. But only sometimes...because I'm picky! I don't want that all the time. That would be annoying. Haha! But at the same time I know I need to be better at making an effort. Not walking in the door and changing into sweat pants and a tank top. Or not being crabby and naggy about stupid stuff. But then if I change I want something in return. And them sometimes the girls talk about sex. And even though I definitely do not talk about sex...hello...I'm blushing just typing this! But sometimes I want to think about my sex life and blush while they are talking about theirs and I think to myself, "lalalalalala I can't hear you!" (what?! I'm a prude!)

Lots of competition and most of it is self-inflicted but seriously who doesn't think about stuff like this? I just need to find the balance in my mind to know that I am doing (pretty much) the best of my ability and of course acknowledge the places and things I can work on to make the internal stife fall by the wayside!

The Great Pumpkin (Patch)

When I was a freshman in college my friend introduced me to this awesome pumpkin patch about an hour away from where we live. It is Walter's Pumpkin Patch and they have so many awesome things that even as a college student we found so much stuff that we could do. And even though I was unmarried and childless at the time I vowed that I would take my future children there. And take my child there I have! For the past 3 years my mom and I (and then my sis-in-law and her mom and baby girl tagged along the past 2 years) have taken Leo there and we have had such and awesome time! This year was no different and it actually is getting better each year because Leo is able to interact more with the attractions at the pumpkin patch. I love taking the day off and just spending an entire day with my mom and Leo. This year we even hit the local McDonalds and let him run off even more energy in the Playplace! This kid has energy for days!

Here are just a few pictures we took of our awesome day at the pumpkin patch!

This pumpkin is too big!

Very thoughtful on they way out

Searching for the perfect pumpkin

Not this one...it's funny looking!

Our giant wagon full of pumpkins

Leo's perfect pumpkin

My perfect pumpkin

Leo loving the corn filled sandbox.
He could play with his diggers!

Jumping on the pumpkin pillow

Our finished pumpkins

And then them as jack-o-lanterns!

So as much fun as you think you see in these pictures multiply that by 100! We had an amazing time and I hope to take Leo (and any future Fernandez babies!) there for as long as it is around! It has definitely become our Halloween tradition! To see other spins about Halloween go check out Sprites Keeper.