I have run into a predicament and I read on someone else's blog about a similar situation. She was talking about not wanting to go out with her friends because she wanted to spend time with her kids (I'm sorry whoever I read this from...I honestly can't remember!). So I have a group of girls I graduated college with and we try to get together once every 1 to 2 months. Well now that I'm back to work and having to close some nights I don't always get home to see the boys at a decent hour. While I hate my hours right now there is nothing I can do about them. So what do you mama's do? Do you take the time to recharge and go with your friends or do you sacrifice yourself and your sanity and stay home with the kiddos?
I went out tonight with them but I feel really badly about it because Monday night after I got home from work around 8:30 Leo wanted to play. We played a quick game of basketball on his Nerf basketball goal and then I read him a book and got him into bed by 9. While this is a later night than normal I liked that he was still up so I could at least see him before he went to bed. About 10 minutes after he went to bed he came in our room crying because he was sad because he didn't hardly get to see me that night. It about broke my heart. I just don't know what to do. While I'm looking for another job none of them seem to be panning out so I feel more and more stuck in the position I am in. And it was recently announced that Boeing will be leaving the Wichita area (which we are a suburb of) and so about 2100 will be out of work. That is on top of the people who have been laid off in the previous few years with all of the other aircraft companies and the economy. So I hate to be to frustrated because at least I have a job.