Friday, November 12, 2010

A Rose is a Rose

So this week’s spin is supposed to be about perfection. And I was thinking about, ah yes. Perfection. The elusive thing that is. Because to me (right now) perfection would totally be not having to be at work and being able to spend lots of time with my family. And lots of money on things that I want instead of things that I need. So of course, perfection would be winning the lottery. Because I would not be one of those crazies that blow it all in the first few months and then have to go to lottery winners anonymous meetings. Because honestly I’m not that crazy! Ok, well maybe I am but I do have a pretty good head on my shoulders and I would really just want to pay off my debt and then buy a nicer house than we currently have. Then I would have like 99.9 million dollars left because I’m totally winning the huge jackpot of 100 million dollars! You know the one I’m talking about? The one that we always dream about winning but don’t want to shell out the $5 to buy a ticket. Yeah, that’s me. I’m pretty lucky but I still don’t like just throwing away money. But I will never, ever win if I never, ever play. And so of course with my 99.9 million dollars left over I would definitely shell out some money to my family members and then the church. And then I’d still have a crap-ton of money left over so I would just get to sit at home and play. I’d still send the monkey to daycare because he needs the structure and the playmates but he definitely wouldn’t be there from 8-5 every day. And then I wouldn’t have to worry about the money for another baby because, duh! I have tons of it! And in my new house there would be a huge gym so I would be able to work out. And then I might have time to pursue hobbies that I don’t have time for now. Like scrapbooking. And baking/cooking. That would be totally awesome! And I would definitely hire a house cleaner. Because that would be the first thing I would spend money on! And I would finally have some alone time to spend with my hubby. So then the baby thing might actually happen!

But then…screech. Reality sets in. Would this really be perfection? But don’t answer that. Because even if really does seem like perfection I’m still sure that I would find that something bothered me, so no. Not perfection. And I know this because I took Leo to go get his pictures taken on Wednesday. And it was the perfect day with the perfect weather. And the session was already paid for, so it was like we were rich. And Leo just wasn’t into it. He has been sick so I understand him not feeling well but it was just for an hour. Couldn’t he just sit still?! And his cousin Chloe were in some of the pictures also and the photographer asked if Leo could kiss Chloe on the cheek or let her kiss him or even just hug one or the other and he wouldn’t listen. It was killing me. The funniest part of the night was when I asked my mom if I was being mean and she told me no. Then I asked her if I sounded mean. She hesitated for a minute and then was like, yes. But no meaner than I ever was to you kids! She was trying to be nice but I knew what she meant. So I just had to sit down on a nearby bench because I didn’t want to sound like a crazy mom. And when I was driving home I was like, All I wanted was the perfect pictures. And it struck me. I have a 3 year old. How much of my life is the perfection that I strive for? I have a body that does not resemble what I would like it to because of him. I have a messy house because of him. And I’m sure those pictures are not going to be perfect because of him. But my life is as perfect as I need it to be…because of him! Even though I complain about the little things that don’t always go right he makes up for so many things that aren’t perfect. The little kisses that he gives me in the mornings when he comes in our room. The way he giggles out of control when we do something silly. The fact that he recognizes music like his dad and could sing part of the Black Eyed Peas song without even hearing it! And then calling it “his song!” Also, the fact that he sleeps just like me and so I know we are just alike! So even though perfection does not look as I imagined it I think I have reached a piece of perfection. And I like how it looks!

To see more spins on perfection go see Sprite’s Keeper. It looks like a lot of us have an idea of perfection that may not be perfect to some but it’s just right for us!


Sprite's Keeper said...

Oh the three year olds! Never perfect, but perfectly willing to throw their two cents into everything. Pose for this picture? Bribe me. Bring my milk cup to the sink? After I see how the remains look on the newly mopped floor.
Love. Them.
You're linked!

Jimmy said...

I think back to when our kids were small and all of the things they go into, yes we wanted them to be perfect then and wish we had better things to give them at the time, but looking back now I see how perfect our lives actually were because of all the "Monkey Wrenches" the kids threw into the works so to say, these things make memories that will last a lifetime.

It appears you have the makings of wonderful memories whether you ever win the lottery or not.

Pseudo said...

I think that those of us who struggle financially feel that without money worries things could be so much closer to perfect. I am like you and have my lotto fantasies.

Then, I look at people with a lot of money and see they have their own problems...

Still.... ;-)

Sandra said...

Awwww, this is beautiful. What a nice way of looking at things...dang, you guys doing this perfection thing are all so healthy! Makes me realize I need to drop a few bucks in therapy!